Shouldn't Be Here

I was so hesitant to go but still continued. Something pushed me to continue - an unknown force.

I continued considering what might happen but it turned out to be much worse.

Was I really invited? It seems to me, because someone suggested ~ therefore i considered it as an invitation.

But actions speak otherwise. I saw people looking with each other eyes showing disappointment.

Was I really supposed to be there? 

I froze, I started thinking I should not be here.

I didn't speak nor talk that much, I was silent.

I continued observing,

Seeing things.

The fun part about here is I want to go to the bathroom to pee,

But my consciousness said that don't, why?

Because I was afraid on seeing them talking behind my back when i get back.

But I can't stop it, I really need to go and so I did.

I made it in a hurry so I can get back quickly.

And look what did I saw? My predictions and expectations.

I heard my name therefore I considered that they are talking to me.

What strengthen my proof is that they stopped talking when I get back.

See that? I shouldn't be there.

Keep on talking, I don't care.
Fvck.